Nasty, Yucky, Mean, & Overall Painful Vaccines!

Well today was the day that I had to face my fears and go to the doctor.  I am not good with shots.... to be honest I usually do very bad.  I have been known to pass out, have had two seizures, thrown up everywhere, etc.  So saying I "don't like shots" is like the understatement of the year.  I was so nervous that I honestly began second guessing this entire trip while waiting for the nurse to come in with the vaccines.

It took awhile to find a doctor that is allowed to give the Yellow Fever Vaccine AND is in my network.  I ended up having to travel to St. Louis.  I was so upset that we didn't get to drive by the arch.... that is my favorite part of the city!  Anyway, my travel doctor went through all of the "stuff" about Rwanda.  I honestly wonder if anyone goes in and is stunned when they are told that info?  I mean when you commit to going to a place like Rwanda (or Africa in general), it's advisable to have examined all of that info prior to three weeks before leaving.  For example, I know there is a malaria threat.... and I also understand that I have to be bit by a mosquito in order to get it.  Turns out I needed more stuff than I had planned for though.... I got the medicine for malaria as well as a preventative set of pills for typhoid.  The he said I needed three shots.  Obviously the Yellow Fever, but also Hep A and a booster for Polio.  He said the polio booster really wasn't as important since I had a vaccine already and it should last a lifetime.  I was at a high risk for Hep A though because of the developmental status of the country so he highly suggested that and Yellow Fever. 

I think the funniest part about the day though is when the doctor kept explaining how I could die.  Me: "What if I don't get the Hep A vaccine?"  Him: "Well you will get really sick...and die."  Me: "...and what happens regarding rabies if you get scratched/bit?"  Him: "The infected spot will begin to get numb.... and then you're dead.  Don't touch animals."  hahahaha I know it is serious and true but I think it was just the way it was said/presented.  At least it gave me a good laugh!

I got through the Yellow Fever ok until I sat up.  I got tunnel vision and then it went black.  Luckily I had enough sense to immediately lay down and didn't actually pass out.  I almost left without the Hep A.  Finally I said I'd wait and get it; I am now officially vaccinated against Yellow Fever AND Hep A.  YAAAAAY! No booster for me though.  Below is part of the Yellow Fever cert that I have to keep with my passport at all times.  Ironic that it is printed on yellow paper....  

 Luckily for me I had a wonderful escort to and from St. Louis so that I could sleep the entire way home!  Thanks Andy :)

Saying NO! in Today's Society

DISCLAIMER:  This post is the rantings of a girl who is completely tired of a world that looks at her (as a female) as inferior and ignorant and looks at the entire continent of Africa as a lost cause.  If you would like to bypass this post now.... feel free :)

Since I first found out about this trip to Rwanda, I have gotten many responses from people.  MOST are very supportive and I wholeheartedly thank you for that!  But for those of you who are not.... I am very disappointed.  I have heard many reasons for this type of behavior. 

"What if something happens to you? What's the point?  Where's Rwanda at anyway? Aren't you scared?  You're a girl.... what if something happens to you?  There are people in the U.S. that need more help than them.... don't you want to help them first?  You're going to get killed over there.  You don't have a life anymore Brittany...." 

I am not saying that some people's concerns are not well-founded.  After all, 17 years ago a genocide occurred in this small country that claimed almost 1,000,000 lives including men, women, children, the elderly, and the disabled.  However, regarding violence, the country is much safer now than it has been in the past.  Look up a security report before you open your mouth next time guys....

The country has made great strides in many areas, but some areas are still lacking and it is not ok to accept that so many people are still hurting.  Amazi (water) and Ibiryo (food) are necessities correct?  Yes, I understand that in America there are so many families that are also suffering in a variety of ways.  I am not devaluing their pain by traveling overseas.  I also see that this group is hurting in a way that is unfamiliar to most in America.  In the U.S. there are at least programs in place for those hurting to get help.... and before I say anything else let me say that I know many are very flawed and slow.  Many times in underdeveloped countries there are not even organizations or programs in place to help those in need.  Luckily for me, in Rwanda there are some that are available, although their resources are very limited. Because of this, it is very important to help them succeed so that Rwandans can eventually help themselves.  It is called a hand-up, not a hand-out. 

Some people are meant to work domestically and some internationally.  I choose both.  I do a lot domestically in the U.S. to help various organizations.  But I also have such a desire to work internationally because I view most things in a global perspective instead of just a United States perspective.  We are all humans.  God put each and every one of us on this earth for a reason and I do not believe for as second that "Africa doesn't matter."  I think that is one of the worst things for me to hear.  I don't know how this idea became so popular, but it is really annoying.  I have heard other things said as well in reference to other parts of the world (from the Middle East because of the wars to the Pacific Islands because of Global Warming).  It is pathetic.  Just because a lot of people think that there are no U.S. interests in the regions of Africa (no oil, etc.) then we shouldn't care about what happens there.  Maybe, just maybe, if we all started caring just a bit more about these other parts of the world and our fellow human beings then this world would be a lot better off.  MAYBE we would be a little closer to that altruistic mindset that contributes to an ideal Utopian society.  I'll get off my podium now and stop preaching about peace, but seriously.... just food for thought.

Finally, my favorite thing to hear, "You're a girl" and "You don't have a life anymore."  Really??!!  IT IS THE 21st CENTURY!  Again, no disrespect to those with legitimate fears.... those I understand.  Yes, the world is a little more dangerous for women in certain areas.  That is why precautions are taken and why safety is always foremost on my mind.  However, if I hear one more time how a girl cannot do a damn thing to change anything I may honestly explode.  Does that mean that in their mindset that a man could enact change?  If I am not mistaken.... men have primarily been the ones running many of these areas around the world with such problems and yet.... no change, only violence and oppression.  Surprised?  Maybe it is time for men to step back and let women try their hand at enacting change.  I am not saying that this is a men v. women scenario.  This is a global problem and it should be tackled with a unified front of both men and women.  Just please, even if you think it, do not tell me that going to Rwanda will be useless and that I will not help anything.  If I am able to successfully help even one person then all of this was worth it.  Also, for everyone who thinks I do not have a life anymore, I sincerely apologize.  I know that working 65+ hours a week (depending on my schedules) has caused a hamper in my social life.  I plan to get it back a little once school starts in Sept. since it is my senior year, but really?  Please do not be negative because you think it is more important to be out partying.  This is my future and my choice.  I want to devote my career to helping at-risk women and children both in the U.S. and internationally.  I want to study criminal and international law with a focus in human rights.  I want to make a difference.  I'm sorry if you don't like it or think I will fail.... just wait and see.  I cannot wait to prove you wrong :)          

I came across this amazing ad from Shell recently.  I could care less who made it (so I apologize if you don't like Shell!) but the idea and the message it portrays is great.  It really is time to stop telling people that they cannot make their dreams come true and instead start helping to turn them into reality.

Living Life to the Fullest

I came across this quote from the book "The Last Season" today while reading another blog Vagabond Girl Adventures about an amazing woman who doesn't let anything stand in her way.  

 

"All of your life, someone is pointing the way, directing you this way and that, determining for you which road is best traveled.  Here is your chance to find your own way.  Don't ask me how to get to McGee Canyon.  Go, on your own.  Be adventuresome.  Don't forever seek the easiest way.  Take the way you find.  Don't demand...signs.  Don't demand we show you...Go find them yourself...This is your birthright, most commonly denied you.  Be free enough from intentions to find goodness wherever you are and in whatever is happening.  Here for once in your life you needn't do anything, be anywhere at a determined time, walk in a certain direction.  You can now live by whim.  Here's your chance..."

The quote, and the blog, reminded me that life isn't always perfect and that it definitely isn't easy.  God never promised us that it would be, but I know he does plan for us to enjoy the adventure to the fullest!  Any and everyone who knows me understands my crazy need to plan practically every minute in my life.... with jobs and school and meetings and organizations and EVERYTHING my schedule is pretty packed.  I never mean to offend if I say I will "pencil you in" or that I'll have to check my calendar.  If I tell you that it is because I sincerely want to make the time and that I will make the time for you.  I forget so often to just.... slow down.  It may sound strange to everyone reading this, but I bought flowers for my kitchen this week so that I could literally make time to "smell the roses."  I tire quickly of being an adult.  It is not fun!  But I know it is necessary and I fully believe it will pay off.  If I hadn't have worked so hard thus far then this trip to Rwanda would be entirely out of my reach.  

In life we realize quickly what it takes to just get by.  For some people, like myself and my brother, we realize what is needed to excel and to thrive and we do not accept failure well.  I'm learning now that failure accompanies everything we do.  You cannot learn without making mistakes.  I do not have regrets because I have learned from every experience (good and bad) throughout my life so far and I wouldn't be the lady I am today without those experiences!  How often do people actually just sit down and examine their lives to see what it is they are missing?  When I saw the movie Eat, Pray, Love I felt an indescribable tugging from within that was impossible to understand.  I know how cliche' that sounds, "I watched a movie and now EVERYTHING makes sense!"  Although that is not the case, it did get me thinking and caused me to evaluate things in my life.  What is important?  What do I want to do?  What will make me happy? 

I have come to the following conclusions:
(they are in no particular order whatsoever)

1. I love to travel.  Other cultures and languages intrigue me beyond measure.

2. My hometown isn't as bad as I used to believe (but sorry momma I still do not want to live there).

3. Being a typical lawyer is something that I may never fully settle into.....

4. I want to eventually get married & have a family (like every other girl) but the idea of someone putting up with me that long and traveling with me was previously unfathomable.  But it is beginning to look a little more like reality...

5. My dream is to be accepted as a Fulbright Scholar to Bangladesh next year.

6. I am a Christian and am always striving to show God's love in my own actions.

7. My bucket list is long and I WILL accomplish everything on it, including riding an elephant in India.

8. I will always and forever be a planner.  No escaping it.

9. I will never ever ever ever stop helping people. It is truly my passion.

and finally....

10. I love my family.  I worry so often that travelling is going to send them into an early grave and to be honest I have begun to have the fear that eventually all young adults get: the death of a loved one.  I have experienced death and grief.  I was exposed to it early and it seriously threw my life around, especially when my best friend Ryan died.  But this is different.... it is a fear to not miss a holiday or birthday, just in case it happens to be a grandparents' (or parent's) last.  I am to that age where I understand most but not enough actually makes sense.  Because of this, it is very hard to follow all of these dreams I have, but I know I must.  I know my parents and grandparents would be disappointed in me if I gave up.  Would they sleep better at night?  ....probably.  But they have raised me to give life my all and that is exactly what I plan to do.  They have helped to point the way for me my entire life.... now is my time to make my own path. 

Updates on Language, Funding & Fundraisers!

Well life has been a little hectic since my last post and I am excited to say that it has been all positive things that have cluttered my life!  I have gotten more exciting news about funding from a few different sources (both on and off campus).  One is confirmed and others are in process and one is still being talked about.  I am waiting to name them officially so hopefully within the week I can list them on here!  Paperwork truly is a hassle, but who cares when others are being so great and helping so very much!

My mom is also putting together an amazingly fun fundraiser at my hometown church, Bankston Fork Baptist Church.  It is called "Scrap for a Cause" and it is essentially a scrapbooking party!  I got my mom into scrapbooking quite awhile ago and now it is definitely her passion.  All proceeds go directly to the trip!  If you are in Harrisburg then definitely come out!  It will be a lot of fun and if you don't really scrapbook then don't worry... you can also come and make things like photo albums, shadow boxes, crafts, cards, etc. Plus, there will be a Thirty-One consultant available on-site with some Thirty-One products and a catalog with lots of awesome goodies!  It includes everything: purses, wallets, umbrellas, totes, scarves, shower caddies, etc.  My mom is buying the adorable apron for me since I have recently dubbed myself Susie Homemaker. Part of the sales will be donated to my trip which is really great.  If you don't think Scrapping is your thing, come out anyway for a fun time of fellowship and to browse the products available.  If you won't be in Harrisburg but are still interested in buying a Thirty-One product to help me fundraise, click here and you will be able to see the full catalog!  Feel free to email me with questions, concerns, or to order Thirty-One products or donate to the trip at mbngholson@gmail.com 

SCRAP FOR A CAUSE 

When:    Saturday June 25, 10 am - 5 pm (Come & Go)

Location:    Bankston Fork Baptist Church, Old Rt. 13 

Cost:   $12 to Scrap All Day!  

If you don't want to scrap and are just coming for the fellowship or to shop the Thirty-One products, there is no entry fee.  Concessions will be available!

**A raffle will be held for a basket of scrapbooking supplies as well**

On a side note, my language skills are.... improving. 

I can now say the following in Kinyarwandan: I am hungry; How much does this cost?; I am full; That service is too expensive; That thing is too expensive; I am thirsty;  Are you hungry?; I am looking for.... ; The food is good; Have you eaten?; How are you?

Do you see the trend?  Everything I know how to say revolves around food or shopping.  Welcome to my life....

I am currently in the process of learning how to say the following: I work for.... ; How is your family?; Excuse me; Have a good day; Food; Water; Do you have children; Sorry (sympathy); Repeat; I don't understand; I speak a little Kinyarwandan; Now; Hello; What's up?; I'm fine; Please; Thank you; Goodbye; Yes; No; What is your name?; My name is Mary Brittany; Good; Nice to meet you; You're Welcome.

Good news is that it is coming along.  Whether or not anyone will be able to understand me is something I am trying to not think about.  Seriously though, I think about some of my friends at my University who are foreign and examine their accents. Everyone has heard that beautiful accent that makes you want to pack your bags and travel to that specific country just to listen to that amazing sound every single day.... and then there are the other ones.  The ones who sound as if they are choking out every word and you feel like you are listening to a dying cat speak its last words.... I feel as if people in Rwanda will equate my accent with the latter.  How depressing.

   

I just received great news!

Brittany,

Congratulations!  You have been awarded $535.00 from The Nancy Siteman Fellows Fund to help cover expenses associated with your summer internship with Global Youth Connect. 

 

How Exciting!!  Below I have copied a little information about the Fund and what it supplies money for.  It is supplied by Nancy Siteman specifically for Shear Fellows (Like ME!) to help aid in costs associated with public service.  Since people who are trying to help the public through service or better the world are so often overlooked (both in pay, opportunities, etc.) it's so wonderful that this fund has been established! 

Helping others is one of the few things that truly CAN make a difference in our world and this is frequently forgotten.  After years of college and those expenses, who in their right mind would like to take a job, internship, fellowship, etc. for....virtually no money.  Money is not what controls happiness, but struggling to pay back school loans and buying a house and marriage, kids, life in general.... it starts to add up.  It is easy to see why these public service appointments that many people dreamed of having while in college (so they could save the world) are so often overlooked for higher-paying positions that may or may not have the same type of impact that those dreamy-eyed college students had once admired and strive for.   

Nancy Siteman Fellows' Fund

The Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life is pleased to again offer graduates of the 21st Century Leadership Academy an opportunity to apply for funding from the Nancy Siteman Fellows’ Fund, made possible by a generous gift from Nancy Siteman.

The purpose of the Fund is to provide a limited source of funding for Shear Fellows wishing to pursue public interest activities that may otherwise be prohibitive because of cost.

Now while reading this you probably saw the name "Sue Shear" and "21st Century Leadership Academy" etc. and are wondering what in the world those things are?!  Well let me just tell you that the Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life hosts the 21 Century Leadership Academy each year and it is by far one of the most amazing experiences that a young, motivated woman can have.  It is specifically for young college women in Missouri.  Each Missouri college sends a few women for this week-long Leadership Academy and each woman at the Academy represents every academic major, personality, political opinion, level of political efficacy, race, religion.... all levels of diversity. 

Throughout the week, Shear Fellows learn and practice leadership skills, discuss important public policy issues, connect with women leaders from the public and private sectors and explore the meaning and practice of leadership in a diverse society.

The Leadership Academy curriculum includes interactive panel discussions, small group exercises, skill-building workshops, and opportunities to network with women leaders who are shaping public policy as elected officials, government leaders and policy advocates. These women role models make policy “real” and donate their time to give participants a glimpse of what it means to be a woman in public life. They also help participants develop leadership skills that will increase their effectiveness as policy makers.  One of the many highlights during the week is a day-trip to Jefferson City where participants will participate in a mock legislative session at the State Capitol, and have lunch with women leaders in state government and the judiciary at the Governor's Mansion.

I have never felt so privileged to be part of something so amazing!  Just to prove how important this Academy is and the power of networking.... One lovely lady that I met while at Sue Shear was Amy Williams.  Ms. Williams is the epitome of a dedicated and driven individual that wholeheartedly believes in making the world a better place.  After the Academy, she traveled to Rwanda with Global Youth Connect.  She is the one who truly encouraged me to get involved with this great NGO!  And without the Academy I would have never had the confidence to apply for something so.... scary.  This group of women who have put together the Academy are absolutely amazing and have worked so incredibly hard to help women achieve their full potential.

DID YOU KNOW....Women are a majority of the population but they make up less than 25 percent of the Missouri Legislature and are minority participants at all levels of public policy leadership. The Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life exists to make government accessible to all Missouri citizens by encouraging women's full participation in the policy process.  The Academy is the first step in helping to shape Missouri's future leaders.... The class of 2010 was truly a group of movers and shakers and true INTERNATIONAL TRAVELERS!

I know that I would never have transformed into the woman I am today without the amazing week and without all of the wonderful ladies that I was able to meet throughout it.  I am so very proud to say that I am a 2010 Shear Fellow!