Nyange School Memorial & Traveling to Kabuye

Backpost from 7-30-11

Today my group and I travelled to Kabuye.  On the way, we stopped at the Nyange School were a planned attack occurred AFTER the initial genocide.  This school was a boarding school and was targeted because it taught forgiveness, reconciliation, and the idea that ethnicity was unimportant and all that mattered was that the students were all Rwandans.  The attackers entered the school after killing the night guard and entering different classrooms.  Six children died and many others were injured.  These students are seen as heroes in Rwanda.  This is because when the attackers came in they demanded that the Hutus and Tutsis separate.  They said no harm would come to the Hutus if they simply obeyed.  They did not.  No one moved; instead, they bravely stood up to the attackers and stated that there were no Tutsi and there were no Hutus there, only Rwandans.  Because of this, they lost their lives.  How brave these students were! 

I found this memorial to be very important because it showed that violence did not just stop after the 100 days.  It did continue and animosity did not just magically fade away.  It took a lot of effort, but this school was proof that forgiveness was/is possible.  It proves how necessary it is in order to move on and better the country as a whole.  As I walked into the classrooms I could see the lessons on the boards that they were all studying that night.  I saw desks with writings and carvings just like ones in the U.S.  It is funny how kids from all over love to deface desks at school! J There were neighbor children outside the windows of the classrooms waving to us and it really brought this memorial to life.  It made me hopeful and I left with a renewed sense of pride for the young men and women who did something that I hope I too would have been strong enough to do if put into that same position. 

Afterwards, we finished our traveling (holy long bus ride!) to Kabuye.  It was so interesting to see how the culture and language barriers seemed to melt away throughout the bus ride.  With a background stereo playing Rwandan and American pop songs, we began to realize we are not that different after all.    I loved that feeling of unity and hope that we seemed to have as we arrived at Centre Bethania. 

This place looked like it was straight out of a postcard.  Set atop the lake on a hill, I honestly never wanted to leave.  It was absolutely amazing!  The view was breathtaking.  I ended up rooming with Jean D’ark and Christina.  After an interesting bedding arrangement, we changed rooms and each had our own place.  Granted, we were missing a mosquito net, but before the end of the night it was put up.  Our neighbors weren’t so lucky at first.  The lack of beds, etc. proved to be almost too much for Mel, Erika and Joelle.  When one of the domestic workers (who spoke zero English) dropped a mattress on the floor and was ready to leave I couldn’t help but burst into laughter!  Luckily, one of the Rwandan Directors was walking by and remedied the situation.  A bed frame and mosquito net and sheets were delivered shortly after. 

Overall it was an amazing trip and I look forward to the next few days here in this little slice of Heaven.

Kigali Genocide Memorial and Commision for Prevention

Back-post from 7-29-11

It has finally hit me that I am not on vacation, that I am half way across the world and that I am in a culture that is very different than my own (yet also extremely similar… I know this is hard to comprehend, but if you were here you would definitely get it). 

Today we visited the National Commission Against Genocide and had a very productive discussion.  Following this, we traveled across town to the Kigali Genocide Memorial were we were able to explore both the inside and outside, alone.  We were given a map and an audio guide.  I started outside and kind of got lost.  I decided to then go inside and save the gardens and mass graves for afterwards.  I heard the history prior to the 1994 genocide and followed through to the 100 day massacres and then the years of rebuilding and reconciliation that followed to the present day.  I saw accompanying videos, pictures, and artifacts.  Traveling through this maze of a museum, I found myself feeling incredibly alone.  I felt as if all of the happiness in the world (and inside of me) was being sucked out.  Hearing the testimony of some survivors, reading the last words of those who perished, and seeing the tools used to slaughter them…. I felt as if I was losing hope in humanity.  Why did no one help these people?  Why did the world not intervene?  It is as if we all turned our heads in different directions to ensure that we did not see the carnage that was occurring before our eyes. 

I made a promise that I would not cry.  I promised myself I would be strong in memory of these brave and mainly innocent people.  I was doing so well… until I came to the room that had pictures of victims that had been provided by family members.  There were so many and this was just an incredibly small increment of victims.  I looked at every single picture that was hanging on the walls.  Men, women, children, elders, infants…. I looked into a glimpse of their lives, an earlier and happier time.  I stared into their eyes wondering why them?  I lost it.  I thought I had to view every picture.  I had to remember every face.  I couldn’t skip any because they all deserved to be recognized and the cruelties they endured can and should never be forgotten.  From there I walked into a room that had skulls and bones from various body parts displayed behind glass.  I could see the marks from bullets and machetes in the skulls.  I kept walking.  Next I walked into a room where some clothes were displayed along with a few personal effects.  An “I love Canada” t-shirt caught my eye and I immediately thought of my new friend Christina who is from Canada and absolutely is in love with her homeland.  I was just so overwhelmed.  I sat down watching a projector display the same testimonies over and over again on a far wall.  I was thinking so many things and had so many questions that I knew would never be answered.  No one can tell me why this happened, why no one helped, or why other genocides and human rights abuses are still occurring.  Every answer I receive is unsatisfactory and leaves a whole even deeper than before because I know that many people accept this situation and others like it as “life.”

So as I was sitting there…. Feeling utterly helpless and completely alone, Christina walks in.  She looks around.  We sit in silence re-watching the testimonies.  Before long we have fallen into each other in tears.  It was obvious at that point that the same emotions were running through as well.  We decided to trek ahead together.  The most intense was yet to come in the Children’s Room.  Life-size pictures were displayed of children, toddles, and infants.  Below the picture it included the child’s name and other info such as their best friend, favorite drink or food, favorite play item or sport.  It also included how they died (burned alive, banged against a wall, shot, chopped up, etc.), their last memory (seeing his mother brutally murdered), and last words (UNAMIR will come!).  It was heart breaking.  I could barely even move forward at this point. 

Christina and I slowly finished the memorial together, eventually meeting the rest of the group at the mass graves to pay our respects.  I tried to hide my tears behind my sunglasses, but Lowell noticed and placed his arm around me just like a father would to a small child.  It was so comforting and as I looked around I realized that our group was very unique, completely different, and a little crazy; however, we were here together.  We thought we were choosing Rwanda, but in reality Rwanda chose us.  I realized that it doesn’t matter how many books you read or how much research you think you have done to prepare yourself mentally, it is never enough.  Being here is an experience that is nearly impossible to write about.  It is an experience that you have to…. Experience.

MY FIRST MOTO RIDE

The beginning of the back-posts....
This is from the beginning of the trip. 

MY FIRST MOTO EXPERIENCE!

So I definitely underestimated the entire moto taxi driver situation here in Rwanda!  It is great!  They are usually cheaper (have to be careful or they try to rip you off by stating a muzunga price/white person price).  However, they are fun and fairly safe.  Overall, a much better option than trying to walk/taxi everywhere. 

Understanding a bit of the language is definitely important. 

Muraho = Hello

Nangahe (non-gah-hay) = How much?

Urahenda (ooh-rah-hane-duh) = That service is too much

Rimwe, Kabiri, Gatatu, Kane = one, two, three, four (ALWAYS follow this with using your fingers to clarify).

Most important, clarify the price prior to getting a helmet or getting on.  Don't be afraid to say too much and walk away.  Motos appear everywhere so it is hard to be without a lower offer.

Getting on and off can be difficult at first.  Where do you hold on/grab?? You’ll learn.  Be careful not to throw the guy off balance…. If he thinks you are a pro he won’t steady the bike as you jump aboard which spells disaster for a beginner.

Also, what about falling off while he is driving?? Well, I was a total foreigner since I was nervous the first few times and held on directly to the man’s stomach.  Honestly I held on for dear life since I was so dang scared!  Now, it is much easier to just hold onto the back handle or something. 

Payment: Always keep those pesky 100RWF!! They come in handy for moto drives since drivers tend to either have zero change OR they pretend not to hoping for you to be aggravated and just say forget it and not wait for change.  It’s annoying, but total worth thinking about. 

Most of all…. Have fun J

I’m trying to include a video of my first moto experience…. A very very very short ride.  Hopefully it uploads!  It was not busy out so it wasn’t exciting at all.  Now since I moto everywhere I should probably take a better video.  We’ll see; maybe in a later post.  Enjoy!

I know it has been forever....

Ahhh!  I'm so sorry I haven't been able to post in so long!  Internet here is an iffy situation.  I've been out of the capitol for a little bit and also just haven't had access (or time) following that return to Kigali.  However, I have been keeping detailed journals so later tonight/tomorrow I will hopefully be able to upload these and (fingers crossed) include pictures!  Everything is so unique and beautiful.... I hate not being able to share it with my family and friends until after I get back to the States!

Ok so it has definitely been an interesting couple of weeks.  I'll just let you know what yesterday evening and today were like though (for now).  Yesterday after work we had holiday time.  Today is our first day off.  Instead of going out of town with most of the delegates last night, I decided to stay in Kigali with a few others.  I knew I needed to get some work done for school and to be honest after all of the traveling lately, I simply couldn't handle much more.  Everyone is getting back tonight though so I'm glad I stayed.  Last evening I came to Bourbon Coffee (close to my guesthouse) on a moto bike taxi to relax on the internet and try to catch up on FB, emails, and of course .... news.  I didn't get a ton done, but it was nice to veg out in front of my laptop with my ipod in one ear and have random convos with strangers who came in and out of the cafe.  

When I finally got home, my friend Joelle said to come by her room to hang out.  I figured she would have already left to go out by then, but I caught her before she headed out.  Vincent (one of the Rwandan delegates; also one of my partners for my volunteer work at the orphanage Peace Village) was with her.  We hung out for a little while and finally they convinced me to come out dancing with them.  Dancing is definitely the thing to do here.  I have only went once since being here, but it is so fun!  Vincent, our friend James, Joelle and I went to Cadillac Club and of course I wanted to learn to dance that old-school tribal stuff that the boys were doing.... epic failure on my part.  They kind of said I was doing it right, but I am definitely a muzunga!! (white girl!) Oh well I've included a pic of Vincent trying to teach me and me looking completely lost.  It is a priceless picture in my opinion.  I did get a compliment (not last night, but the first time I went dancing) by some people.  I was told I "dance like a black girl..... a real Rwandan black girl!" haha And yes, this is exactly what was told to me.  They are nuts.  Dancing isn't really my thing.

After getting home I fell asleep eating a couple of Pringles that I had found at the super marche earlier in the day.  They were definitely worth the 1800 RWF that I paid.  Interesting how something as simple as a can of Pringles can make life seem so much better!  I vow to never eat rice or "meat stew sauce" again once I return home.  We had gotten new rooms yesterday after we finally returned to St. Paul's guesthouse so Christina and I are now rooming together.  We are all a lot closer to each other now compared to before when everyone's rooms were pretty scattered across the compound.  I definitely missed having my own bed, even if it is a tiny little twin with a mattress that sinks close to the floor!  

This morning I got up fairly early and moto'd out across town to Kimironko (pronounced Chimirrongo) to explore the market.  Funny story.... my moto ran out of gas on the way.  I got off and he was like pointing to the gas gauge and shrugging his shoulders.  I was stunned.  He then proceeded to hold out his hand for payment!  I am so happy I happened to remember enough Kinyarwandan to get me by at this point.  I firmly explained that Kimihurera WAS NOT Kimironko and I was not going to pay him anything.  There is kind of a saying here about any time you need a moto, one (or 1,000) will magically appear.... so true.  Somehow, another moto just randomly pulled up and I jumped on the back screaming Murakoze, Murakoze! (thank you, thank you) to the dumb driver who let his bike run out of gas as me and my new driver were speeding away.  haha I don't even feel bad about it either!  This was not his first rodeo... he should have known better than to take a customer when he was on empty considering how far away we were going.  Don't worry mom.... completely safe!  Promise :)

The market was pretty low key, although I definitely heard the words "Muzunga" or "Sista" yelled at me a million times trying to get my attention.  I got a lot of stuff actually.  Awesome prices for everything since I am pretty decent at that whole bargaining thing.  I also got a little fabric (purple and cream) to have a skirt tailored for me.  I recommend to anyone traveling: get something made!  It will probably be one of my favorite souvenoirs.  I was pretty excited about my two bags of purchases until I realized I had to moto back!  Holding on to paper sacks while also holding on to the back of the moto seat is.... an interesting experiences.  I made it though!  I met Joelle and Krista at Bourbon Coffee at the UTC and had lunch.  We had talked about maybe swimming at the Milles Collines (most would know this hotel as the one featured in the movie Hotel Rwanda).  However, we decided to head over to the Serena, easily rated the highest class and most expensive hotel in Kigali.  I mean after all, it is our day off!

Joelle and I decided to treat ourselves to the spa.  I splurged some of my souvenoir money on the treatments.  We both got these amazing ginger scrubs and we each got a swedish massage.  I have never felt better!  Afterwards, I took the longest shower ever and I am sure that I washed my hair like three times.  It was amazing to shower somewhere without shower shoes, a place that had actual water pressure and HOT water.  It also had a shower head above instead of me having to bend below a faucet!  Great time.  Afterwards we met Krista outside by the pool for a bit.  Apparently if you don't room there it costs US$20 just to be out there!  I left early and headed back to get my laundry and fun stuff like that.  I don't feel dirty yet which is a complete miracle.  I'm sitting at Bourbon and am very very very thankful for a great internet connection.  I also ordered a piece of chocolate cake with a scoop of ice cream.... I wasn't ever brought any ice cream (typical) but they did decorate the plate!  Too bad it tasted like dirt and only ate about one bite.  Nice idea though.  Hopefully headed to Papyrus (restaurant/dance club) later with everyone if they get back in time!  More info and back-posts to come. 

Morning off tomorrow and then headed to the Nyamata Church Memorial in the afternoon.  It is going to be an intense afternoon.... It is still so hard to imagine that this beautiful country was in such disarray only a short 17 years ago. To think these hills and churches and streets were filled with bodies of those slain still puts knots in my stomach.  However, if I have learned nothing else while here, I have learned that reconciliation and forgiveness are possible.  The resilience of the Rwandan people is remarkable; and to all of my new friends, I admire you more than you may ever know. 

Forgot to Mention....

With all of the excitement yesterday I forgot to mention that Kristin B. and I saw the President's entourage going past us our way through town to our volunteer site!  It was pretty exciting since I've been talking about him non-stop.  Yay!

Updates on Life in Rwanda!

This is a very special post.... I am not writing it alone.  My friend Christina and I are braving the elements (aka mosquitoes) to share the past couple of days with you all.  Muryoherwe!  (Enjoy!)

So we have been here for a few days and are honestly amazed at how great Rwanda truly is.  It is so full of culture and everyone here is incredibly friendly.  Today was our second day with the Rwandan delegates and our workshops have been really fantastic.  We have examined human rights, the definitions surrounding it, as well as the complications that contribute to a lot of the confusion.  We have been discussing a lot of human rights issues here in Rwanda, but this afternoon was very interesting because we had a chance to share with the Rwandese a piece of our lives back home.  We looked at human rights challenges that even North Americans face, Christina taking a lead on discussion revolving around Aboriginal communities in Canada.  Brittany was fascinated with the similarities between the plight of Canadian Indigenous Peoples and that of Native Americans.  Both of us were astounded by the fact that the Rwandan delegates seemed so surprised by the realities of North America and the challenges we face, specifically homelessness.  They seemed to be in shock when we said that some people across our countries do not have adequate access to shelter or basic necessities such as food and water.  It was interesting for us to see how others view N. America and how prominent poverty truly is.  We also visited our volunteer organizations today for an intial visit, but we will each talk about that individually later.  Tomorrow we will be talking about the Great Lakes Region and will hear first hand testimony from a former child soldier from the Congo.  Also, we will visit Search for Common Ground is an international conflict resolution NGO seeking to transform adversarial conflict into cooperative action.  They have a specific focus on youth here in Rwanda so both the international and Rwandan delegates are looking forward to this.  We are both expecting quite a bit of an emotionally charged day!

As for our personal lives....
This evening we had the priviledge of attending a screening of the movie Kinyarwanda at the Rwandan Film Festival at the Manor Hotel here in Rwanda.  The hotel was absolutely stunning!  When we arrived, we were somehow whisked to the very front row in VIP seating (don't ask how that happened, we have no idea).  Prior to the film neither of us were aware of its content; we were simply looking for something fun and cultural to do during our free time.  The movie followed various characters throughout the 100 days of the genocide in Rwanda.  Interesting side note, the makers of the film made it to be 100 minutes long to also represent each day of the genocide.  One of the actors was sitting directly behind us.  Brittany talked to the woman's friends and husband after the viewing and helped to convey just how great we all thought it was.  It is very hard to pu into words just how intense and moving the film was for all of us here; we highly recommend that everyone check it out sometime.  Afterwards, Brittany and two other girls from the delegation (Addi & Julie) were asked to randomly give a quick interview statement on camera for African TV! Don't worry.... she is a celeb.  No big deal.  Overall it was a hectic and fun night and we are all so happy we went!

p.s. Brittany scored great taxi fares for the group and she deserves MAJOR PROPS for her awesome bargaining in Kinyarwanda.  Christina was pretty blown away by her awesomeness.... :)

Ijoro Ryiza! (Good Night!)

We love and miss you all and cannot wait to hear from you soon! 

With Love ,

Brittany & Christina

I MADE IT!!

So I am finally in Rwanda!  Technically I have been here for a little while, but I just now was able to get onto the internet.  I left St. Louis on the 20th and arrived the 22nd around noon.  Sorry for the length of this post, but I have so much to write about! 

Words for the wise.... NEVER EVER EVER opt out of staying in a hotel during a layover in Washington D.C.  I guess I was just not thinking, but I decided to just stay the night at Dulles in the terminal.  With all of the trouble with flights I thought I could work it out and it turned out that when I arrived everything was shutting down!  The airport shuts down at night!  Connecting flights obviously run, but none of it is a 24/7 area except the baggage claim area.  It was a disaster.  I was so exhausted at that point (I didn't sleep at all the night before leaving) that I just collapsed on one of the only benches in this little sitting area for diners.  I had to collect my checked bags as well... please picture me as the American Girl version of Harry Potter.  I was pushing a trolley around with two 50 pound suitcases, a Vera carry-on weekender, a laptop messenger with a broken strap (sorry mom... I'll buy you a new one!) and of course my shoulder strap purse tightly hanging down to my waist.  Seriously, all I needed was Hedwig on top and I would have been set! 

Overally it was an interesting experience, but by the final flight I was feeling extremely sick (surprise, right?  I am always sick!).  I met a fellow delegate for the final leg of the journey and was very excited!  Other than that, I am extremely thankful for those random people that helped me throughout the way; such as the girl who kept me company at Dulles who is from Hong Kong and probably couldn't understand half of what I was saying; the Texas grad who is originally from Kigali and was going home for the summer who helped me find my gate and navigate off of the runway in Addis (yes.... they had us get off the plane pretty darn far away from the actual airport, on the runways); and just everyone who was so helpful and nice along the way.

When arriving in Kigali, Jesse met us and watched our bags as we changed some money and bought waters.  I feel as if I am still on the dehydrated side which is insane considering the amount of water I have been downing since arriving.  Jesse and Gina (our program directors) are great and the delegates have been arriving at varying times.  As of last night, everyone had arrived.  Everyone is really great and I think this delegation is going to be amazing.  Today we visited the Belgium Memorial and had a driving tour of Kigali.  We have been doing our own exploring (always in groups!  No worries....) throughout the city prior to today.  We've found some great restaurants such as Moroccon and Indian that I am IN LOVE with!  This morning we first went to the Gorillas Hotel and enjoyed an amazing breakfast.  We also visited Jesse's father's house in Kigali for lunch and orientation discussion.  My favorite thing was visiting a sewing co-op that employs women who were victims of sexual violence during the genocide who are now HIV+ as a result of that trauma.  I got my Christmas ornament from there, a present for my mom, and I was able to custom make a messenger bag!  The women are so amazing and it is impossible to explain what this experience was like.  I get to pick up my bag next week so I am excited to go back and see everyone.  Some of their kids were there playing and they loved my camera and taking pictures!  They didn't quite understand that when we took it to smile, but when they saw themselves they couldn't stop smiling!  They were so sweet and I also was able to practice some Kinyarwandan with them.  I got a really terrible migraine later in the day though but I started feeling better this evening which is good.  Tomorrow we are meeting with the Rwandan delegates for our first workshop day!

I know I am forgetting so much stuff so I will add more tomorrow evening hopefully.  I am also going to add pictures!  So check back because I just need to figure out how to make them load easier.  It's hard to explain what it is like to feel like such a ray of sunshine here in Kigali.... sometimes I feel like a circus freak since the stares are so intense and curious! It is amazing though.  My favorite is hearing "Umuzunga!!"  repeated over and over as I walk by.  It means "white person."  Other than that, professions of love from the boys and young men is pretty cute as well :) and yes Andy I know that they don't mean it! haha I am not that silly!  I have a cell so being in contact with the family is great and I hope the internet connection continues in availability.  The friendliness here is so fabulous and I wish the U.S. cities were this friendly.....

Miss everyone so very much and I will post again soon!  Love you all!    

Delta Love

Spring 2009.  This is when I was initiated into the most amazing sorority, Delta Delta Delta.  I am proudly a Tri Delt at Southeast Missouri State, Phi Mu 1404.  I have met some of my closest girlfriends since joining and have had the privilege to meet some amazing women that are inspiring role models (both within my collegiate peers and our amazing alumni!).  Over this past semester I have had the support of my sisters in regards to this trip and they recently were able to make a monetary donation for more supplies for the kids!  So exciting to be able to gather more things to take overseas.  I have been packing all day and it is so difficult!  I fail.... seriously I don't think this is quite my forte.  I cannot imagine how FUN it is going to be to lug an extra suitcase through the airport, but I know it will be worth it.  I have had such an amazing influx of help from both of my "homes" of Harrisburg and Cape Girardeau.  I am so thankful to my sorority for its help and I truly appreciate the moral support as well.  After all, we are built upon a perpetual bond of friendship.

In 1888, women were not permitted to vote, and few women were found in the workplace or at the formerly all-male universities. It was natural for women students to join together in small groups for friendship and support.

Although there were three women's groups represented at Boston University in 1888, Sarah Ida Shaw saw a need for a group which would be different from the others. She said to her friend, Eleanor Dorcas Pond, "Let us found a society that shall be kind alike to all and think more of a girl's inner self and character than of her personal appearance."

THE PURPOSE OF DELTA DELTA DELTA shall be to establish a perpetual bond of friendship among its members, to develop a stronger and more womanly character, to broaden the moral and intellectual life, and to assist its members in every possible way.

IT SHALL ALSO BE THE PURPOSE OF DELTA DELTA DELTA to promote and develop mutually beneficial relationships between the Fraternity and the colleges and universities where the Fraternity has established chapters, to develop qualities of unselfish leadership among its members, and to encourage them to assume, with integrity and devotion to moral and democratic principles, the highest responsibilities of college women.        

Knowing that I have the support of my sisters is a really great feeling though.  Deltas around the country are responsible for helping to improve the lives of children through their work in varying organizations, philanthropy events, and of course, our intense and successful work at St. Jude Children's Research Hospital!  Deltas are known for their huge hearts and the drive to help others that is always noticeably visible through their work and volunteering.  I am so proud to be a Tri Delta, especially at SEMO-U! 

"....But the Greatest of These is Love."

Delta Love & All of Mine,

Mary Brittany
Phi Mu 1404  

Thanks to Phi Kappa Phi!

I am so very proud and honored to be a member of the Honor Society of Phi Kappa Phi at Southeast Missouri State!  I was inducted this past spring (April 17, 2011). The primary objectives of this Society are to promote the pursuit of excellence in all fields of higher education and to recognize outstanding achievement by students, faculty and others through election to membership, and through various awards for distinguished achievement.  As a second term junior, I had to rank within the top 7.5% of the class.

Phi Kappa Phi Study Abroad Grants are designed to help support undergraduates nationwide as they seek knowledge and experience in their academic fields by studying abroad. Forty-five $1,000 grants are awarded each year.  This year, 442 qualified applicants were examined by the committee and out of the 45 students who were chosen, I made the cut!  I am now the proud winner of a Phi Kappa Phi Honor Society Study Abroad Grant worth $1,000!  I am so very excited about this!  


My personal info sheet & head shot (Post-Award) for their publications:

Name:                    Mary Brittany N. Gholson

School:                  Southeast Missouri State University

Major:                    Bachelor of Science in Interdisciplinary Studies with emphasis in Political   Science, Criminal Justice and Speech Communication

Classification:       Senior

Current Job(s):      1.   U.S. Attorney’s Office – Intern

                                2.   College of Education – Student Assistant to the Dean

                                3.   Buckner Brewing Company – Waitress

                                4.   Charlotte Russe – Sales Associate

Destination:              Rwanda

 

Travel Dates:             July 20, 2011 – Aug. 17, 2011

Purpose:                     Humanitarian Volunteer Mission and Research – While in country I will be working with genocide victims, at-risk women and children, and traditionally marginalized peoples. I will also be using this experience to conduct research for my University to fulfill a class project and Senior Honors Assignment research project.

Further Ed. Plans:     Upon graduation from Southeast, I will intern for a year and then proceed to law school where I will place a focus on criminal and international law with emphasis in the areas of human rights.

Career Objectives:     I would like to eventually be able to use my law degree to help at-risk women and children internationally.

Fantasy Career:         Promoting human rights is my passion and working internationally for the ICC would be amazing.  Working as a judge for an ICC Tribunal would be the most amazing thing I can imagine!

Role Model:                My family and the everyday heroes in my life are great inspirations, but of those famous I look to Mother Teresa, Eleanor Roosevelt, Madeleine Albright, among many others.

Comm. Service:         Working with, and eventually presiding as President for, the Dance Marathon Organization which raises money for the Children’s Miracle Network in the St. Louis area is the most rewarding cause I have been part of thus far.

Most Proud of Self:    During my college career I was able to attend a leadership academy solely for women in my state that focused on our ability to succeed in any field we chose.  For the first time, I truly believed that I could accomplish any and everything I wanted, and I fully plan to do this.  That self awakening was by far the proudest moment I have had because it has led me to exactly where I am now.

Traveler Necessities

Countdown: I leave in T-minus 12 days!

I have been doing a lot of research lately on traveling supplies and necessities and I am happy to say that it is paying off.  Granted, one of my "necessities" is a DSLR, but I digress.... I ordered some things and bought some things and am in the process of picking a few more things out.  I hope these ideas, suggestions, reviews, etc. come in handy for you as well if you find yourself traveling.  These are just my own personal opinions on a few products I have found so far.

1.  WATER: If you are worried much about the safety for the water that you will be drinking while abroad, consider buying one of these.  It was very tough to find actually since I wasn't sure what I was looking for, but a man I work for found this at cheaperthandirt.com and referred me to it.  It is a Katadyn MyBottle Purifier.  It holds 24 ounces of water (with the cartridge inside) and it is the only EPA registered bottle purification system on the market currently.  Katadyn's advanced 3-stage Virustat filtration system removes all viruses, bacteria, and cysts from water while the integral activated carbon filter removes chemicals and enhances taste.  AND NO.... I am not a spokeswoman for the company or anything!  I just want to pass along a great product that is difficult to find.  It is a little pricey.... approx. $50 plus S&H from Cheaperthandirt, but I got mine on Amazon cheaper with no S&H.  What makes this thing even better?  It comes in a few different colors (I just love blue) AND when you have safe drinking water available?  Just pop out the purifier cartridge and insert the long straw that comes with it and it will double as a regular top-notch water bottle!

2.  SHOES: What does the savvy, fashion-conscience lady do about shoe attire in a place like Rwanda, or Africa in general?  She buys TOMS (obviously).  Don't have any idea what that is?  Check it out.  Seriously they are sensible, awesome, and durable shoes that are fun, cute, and they help those in need.  One for One!  For every pair you buy, TOMS will donate one pair to a child in need.  How cool is that?  Go to YouTube and check out the drop they did in Rwanda in 2010.  They have helped so many people!  It took forever for me to break down and buy a pair, but I am so happy that I finally did it!  They should be arriving in the mail any day now... I chose the Classics, in Black & Red.  I couldn't choose between the two!! I also decided to get a cutesy little blue tie-dye pair of Tiny Toms for my best friend who is having a baby boy.  Guess what?  I have helped three in need.  Yay me!         

3.  CAMERA:  I did it.... I finally bought a camera!  I seriously have been researching for months and examining prices like it's my job.  I found a top of the line camera that had pretty great reviews and it is a very reputable brand.  I had seen the Nikon D3100 when I first began my search at $600.... I didn't realize that was a great deal until I saw it go back up to its original price of $700.  I kept searching and I tried out a few different ones while in stores shopping, but none had that right "feel" for me except the Nikon D3100.  Imagine how bummed I was when every single store was either $650 or $700!  I couldn't believe that I had missed my chance at saving between $50-$100!  I didn't give up though and eventually I found it again for $600.... but it was at a club store that I didn't have membership to.  Paying the temp. member fee would put me at the same price as the other stores so I kept looking.... then I got a great idea.  I have a Sears card (to help build credit... I don't believe in debt so I pay off what I put onto the card within 48 hours) and a rewards card that lets me get money back for each purchase I make.  I checked out their price match rules and found out that they could match it!  The sales associate was so incredibly helpful and I saved $100 (when they matched it) plus and extra 10% simply because they like to reward their customers when they price match.  I walked out of there with a $700 camera for only $594!  Plus, I get about $7.50 off of my next purchase at Sears.  Pretty great, right?  The camera is amazing by the way....    

4. MEDICINE:  Ugh.  Medicine and vaccines are the worst, but when you know they will help to save your life you deal with it.  Everyone knows the Yellow Fever vaccine is a requirement.  Other things are recommended, like the Hep A shot I got.  Also, malaria is a threat so preventative medicine is necessary.  Typhoid is recommended as well.... luckily for me the doctor said the pill vaccine tends to be more effective than the shot so I started with my first dose of that last night.  I hear it tends to make you sick, but so far I am doing well.  As far as malaria drugs go, check out the CDC website and check for what is needed.  Since I have had a couple seizures in my lifetime (stupid fear of needles) I was told that Mefloquine was out.  The only other choices that are effective in Rwanda are Doxy & Malarone.  I heard Doxy isn't always as effective, but it is cheaper.  However, I urge EVERYONE to call their insurance and find out prices and what is covered because I found out that Malarone (the better one) is covered and I only have a co-pay on it!  It was well worth the 20 minutes I spent on hold to find that out. 

5. LANGUAGE:  Before traveling, it is best to try and grasp at least a small portion of the language.  For a place like Rwanda, finding books that help you learn Kinyarwanda is tough.  However I have found two great resources to share:  Morgan in Africa is a pretty awesome blog that has a fairly extensive list of words and phrases for various daily activities.  I love it because it has pronunciations so I can tell if I am saying it correctly.  Also, this dictionary is very helpful!  No pronunciations really, but it covers quite a bit of ground. 

Muraho Rwanda!  Nitwa Mary Brittany.  Nkaforero Global Youth Connect.

Hello Rwanda!  My name is Mary Brittany.  I work for Global Youth Connect.

Leaving soon for RWANDA....

I leave for Rwanda in 14 days!!!  I cannot wait for this crazy and exciting adventure to begin!  I know that I will get as much out of this trip as I choose to put into it; this is going to be a life-changing experience....

Muraho Rwanda! 

With Love,

Mary Brittany 

Thank You to SEMO's International Department & Criminal Justice Department!

Quite awhile ago I began in a frantic, yet well-thought out, search for funding from my University.  I have encountered a lot of NO!'s, but have also gotten some "maybe's" that have kept me going.  I am so happy to say that two of the searches have paid off!  I mentioned them in previous posts but never wanted to get my hopes up until they were official.  I still have one "maybe" out there that I will keep to myself though.

Both the International Education & Services Department and the Criminal Justice and Sociology Department have agreed to put money towards reimbursement of my international airfare!  The total ticket for round trip flight was right under $1,900.  I will be doing research while in country and receiving class credit through the CJ Dept. for my research.  I am also using this research for my Senior Honors Project which will most likely also include a University event sometime next Spring. 

The International Department has donated $750 and the Criminal Justice Department is donating $200!

I am very excited to receive this and cannot believe just how close this trip is!  I leave July 20, which is a mere 15 days from today.  How crazy is that?!

Nasty, Yucky, Mean, & Overall Painful Vaccines!

Well today was the day that I had to face my fears and go to the doctor.  I am not good with shots.... to be honest I usually do very bad.  I have been known to pass out, have had two seizures, thrown up everywhere, etc.  So saying I "don't like shots" is like the understatement of the year.  I was so nervous that I honestly began second guessing this entire trip while waiting for the nurse to come in with the vaccines.

It took awhile to find a doctor that is allowed to give the Yellow Fever Vaccine AND is in my network.  I ended up having to travel to St. Louis.  I was so upset that we didn't get to drive by the arch.... that is my favorite part of the city!  Anyway, my travel doctor went through all of the "stuff" about Rwanda.  I honestly wonder if anyone goes in and is stunned when they are told that info?  I mean when you commit to going to a place like Rwanda (or Africa in general), it's advisable to have examined all of that info prior to three weeks before leaving.  For example, I know there is a malaria threat.... and I also understand that I have to be bit by a mosquito in order to get it.  Turns out I needed more stuff than I had planned for though.... I got the medicine for malaria as well as a preventative set of pills for typhoid.  The he said I needed three shots.  Obviously the Yellow Fever, but also Hep A and a booster for Polio.  He said the polio booster really wasn't as important since I had a vaccine already and it should last a lifetime.  I was at a high risk for Hep A though because of the developmental status of the country so he highly suggested that and Yellow Fever. 

I think the funniest part about the day though is when the doctor kept explaining how I could die.  Me: "What if I don't get the Hep A vaccine?"  Him: "Well you will get really sick...and die."  Me: "...and what happens regarding rabies if you get scratched/bit?"  Him: "The infected spot will begin to get numb.... and then you're dead.  Don't touch animals."  hahahaha I know it is serious and true but I think it was just the way it was said/presented.  At least it gave me a good laugh!

I got through the Yellow Fever ok until I sat up.  I got tunnel vision and then it went black.  Luckily I had enough sense to immediately lay down and didn't actually pass out.  I almost left without the Hep A.  Finally I said I'd wait and get it; I am now officially vaccinated against Yellow Fever AND Hep A.  YAAAAAY! No booster for me though.  Below is part of the Yellow Fever cert that I have to keep with my passport at all times.  Ironic that it is printed on yellow paper....  

 Luckily for me I had a wonderful escort to and from St. Louis so that I could sleep the entire way home!  Thanks Andy :)

Saying NO! in Today's Society

DISCLAIMER:  This post is the rantings of a girl who is completely tired of a world that looks at her (as a female) as inferior and ignorant and looks at the entire continent of Africa as a lost cause.  If you would like to bypass this post now.... feel free :)

Since I first found out about this trip to Rwanda, I have gotten many responses from people.  MOST are very supportive and I wholeheartedly thank you for that!  But for those of you who are not.... I am very disappointed.  I have heard many reasons for this type of behavior. 

"What if something happens to you? What's the point?  Where's Rwanda at anyway? Aren't you scared?  You're a girl.... what if something happens to you?  There are people in the U.S. that need more help than them.... don't you want to help them first?  You're going to get killed over there.  You don't have a life anymore Brittany...." 

I am not saying that some people's concerns are not well-founded.  After all, 17 years ago a genocide occurred in this small country that claimed almost 1,000,000 lives including men, women, children, the elderly, and the disabled.  However, regarding violence, the country is much safer now than it has been in the past.  Look up a security report before you open your mouth next time guys....

The country has made great strides in many areas, but some areas are still lacking and it is not ok to accept that so many people are still hurting.  Amazi (water) and Ibiryo (food) are necessities correct?  Yes, I understand that in America there are so many families that are also suffering in a variety of ways.  I am not devaluing their pain by traveling overseas.  I also see that this group is hurting in a way that is unfamiliar to most in America.  In the U.S. there are at least programs in place for those hurting to get help.... and before I say anything else let me say that I know many are very flawed and slow.  Many times in underdeveloped countries there are not even organizations or programs in place to help those in need.  Luckily for me, in Rwanda there are some that are available, although their resources are very limited. Because of this, it is very important to help them succeed so that Rwandans can eventually help themselves.  It is called a hand-up, not a hand-out. 

Some people are meant to work domestically and some internationally.  I choose both.  I do a lot domestically in the U.S. to help various organizations.  But I also have such a desire to work internationally because I view most things in a global perspective instead of just a United States perspective.  We are all humans.  God put each and every one of us on this earth for a reason and I do not believe for as second that "Africa doesn't matter."  I think that is one of the worst things for me to hear.  I don't know how this idea became so popular, but it is really annoying.  I have heard other things said as well in reference to other parts of the world (from the Middle East because of the wars to the Pacific Islands because of Global Warming).  It is pathetic.  Just because a lot of people think that there are no U.S. interests in the regions of Africa (no oil, etc.) then we shouldn't care about what happens there.  Maybe, just maybe, if we all started caring just a bit more about these other parts of the world and our fellow human beings then this world would be a lot better off.  MAYBE we would be a little closer to that altruistic mindset that contributes to an ideal Utopian society.  I'll get off my podium now and stop preaching about peace, but seriously.... just food for thought.

Finally, my favorite thing to hear, "You're a girl" and "You don't have a life anymore."  Really??!!  IT IS THE 21st CENTURY!  Again, no disrespect to those with legitimate fears.... those I understand.  Yes, the world is a little more dangerous for women in certain areas.  That is why precautions are taken and why safety is always foremost on my mind.  However, if I hear one more time how a girl cannot do a damn thing to change anything I may honestly explode.  Does that mean that in their mindset that a man could enact change?  If I am not mistaken.... men have primarily been the ones running many of these areas around the world with such problems and yet.... no change, only violence and oppression.  Surprised?  Maybe it is time for men to step back and let women try their hand at enacting change.  I am not saying that this is a men v. women scenario.  This is a global problem and it should be tackled with a unified front of both men and women.  Just please, even if you think it, do not tell me that going to Rwanda will be useless and that I will not help anything.  If I am able to successfully help even one person then all of this was worth it.  Also, for everyone who thinks I do not have a life anymore, I sincerely apologize.  I know that working 65+ hours a week (depending on my schedules) has caused a hamper in my social life.  I plan to get it back a little once school starts in Sept. since it is my senior year, but really?  Please do not be negative because you think it is more important to be out partying.  This is my future and my choice.  I want to devote my career to helping at-risk women and children both in the U.S. and internationally.  I want to study criminal and international law with a focus in human rights.  I want to make a difference.  I'm sorry if you don't like it or think I will fail.... just wait and see.  I cannot wait to prove you wrong :)          

I came across this amazing ad from Shell recently.  I could care less who made it (so I apologize if you don't like Shell!) but the idea and the message it portrays is great.  It really is time to stop telling people that they cannot make their dreams come true and instead start helping to turn them into reality.

Living Life to the Fullest

I came across this quote from the book "The Last Season" today while reading another blog Vagabond Girl Adventures about an amazing woman who doesn't let anything stand in her way.  

 

"All of your life, someone is pointing the way, directing you this way and that, determining for you which road is best traveled.  Here is your chance to find your own way.  Don't ask me how to get to McGee Canyon.  Go, on your own.  Be adventuresome.  Don't forever seek the easiest way.  Take the way you find.  Don't demand...signs.  Don't demand we show you...Go find them yourself...This is your birthright, most commonly denied you.  Be free enough from intentions to find goodness wherever you are and in whatever is happening.  Here for once in your life you needn't do anything, be anywhere at a determined time, walk in a certain direction.  You can now live by whim.  Here's your chance..."

The quote, and the blog, reminded me that life isn't always perfect and that it definitely isn't easy.  God never promised us that it would be, but I know he does plan for us to enjoy the adventure to the fullest!  Any and everyone who knows me understands my crazy need to plan practically every minute in my life.... with jobs and school and meetings and organizations and EVERYTHING my schedule is pretty packed.  I never mean to offend if I say I will "pencil you in" or that I'll have to check my calendar.  If I tell you that it is because I sincerely want to make the time and that I will make the time for you.  I forget so often to just.... slow down.  It may sound strange to everyone reading this, but I bought flowers for my kitchen this week so that I could literally make time to "smell the roses."  I tire quickly of being an adult.  It is not fun!  But I know it is necessary and I fully believe it will pay off.  If I hadn't have worked so hard thus far then this trip to Rwanda would be entirely out of my reach.  

In life we realize quickly what it takes to just get by.  For some people, like myself and my brother, we realize what is needed to excel and to thrive and we do not accept failure well.  I'm learning now that failure accompanies everything we do.  You cannot learn without making mistakes.  I do not have regrets because I have learned from every experience (good and bad) throughout my life so far and I wouldn't be the lady I am today without those experiences!  How often do people actually just sit down and examine their lives to see what it is they are missing?  When I saw the movie Eat, Pray, Love I felt an indescribable tugging from within that was impossible to understand.  I know how cliche' that sounds, "I watched a movie and now EVERYTHING makes sense!"  Although that is not the case, it did get me thinking and caused me to evaluate things in my life.  What is important?  What do I want to do?  What will make me happy? 

I have come to the following conclusions:
(they are in no particular order whatsoever)

1. I love to travel.  Other cultures and languages intrigue me beyond measure.

2. My hometown isn't as bad as I used to believe (but sorry momma I still do not want to live there).

3. Being a typical lawyer is something that I may never fully settle into.....

4. I want to eventually get married & have a family (like every other girl) but the idea of someone putting up with me that long and traveling with me was previously unfathomable.  But it is beginning to look a little more like reality...

5. My dream is to be accepted as a Fulbright Scholar to Bangladesh next year.

6. I am a Christian and am always striving to show God's love in my own actions.

7. My bucket list is long and I WILL accomplish everything on it, including riding an elephant in India.

8. I will always and forever be a planner.  No escaping it.

9. I will never ever ever ever stop helping people. It is truly my passion.

and finally....

10. I love my family.  I worry so often that travelling is going to send them into an early grave and to be honest I have begun to have the fear that eventually all young adults get: the death of a loved one.  I have experienced death and grief.  I was exposed to it early and it seriously threw my life around, especially when my best friend Ryan died.  But this is different.... it is a fear to not miss a holiday or birthday, just in case it happens to be a grandparents' (or parent's) last.  I am to that age where I understand most but not enough actually makes sense.  Because of this, it is very hard to follow all of these dreams I have, but I know I must.  I know my parents and grandparents would be disappointed in me if I gave up.  Would they sleep better at night?  ....probably.  But they have raised me to give life my all and that is exactly what I plan to do.  They have helped to point the way for me my entire life.... now is my time to make my own path. 

Updates on Language, Funding & Fundraisers!

Well life has been a little hectic since my last post and I am excited to say that it has been all positive things that have cluttered my life!  I have gotten more exciting news about funding from a few different sources (both on and off campus).  One is confirmed and others are in process and one is still being talked about.  I am waiting to name them officially so hopefully within the week I can list them on here!  Paperwork truly is a hassle, but who cares when others are being so great and helping so very much!

My mom is also putting together an amazingly fun fundraiser at my hometown church, Bankston Fork Baptist Church.  It is called "Scrap for a Cause" and it is essentially a scrapbooking party!  I got my mom into scrapbooking quite awhile ago and now it is definitely her passion.  All proceeds go directly to the trip!  If you are in Harrisburg then definitely come out!  It will be a lot of fun and if you don't really scrapbook then don't worry... you can also come and make things like photo albums, shadow boxes, crafts, cards, etc. Plus, there will be a Thirty-One consultant available on-site with some Thirty-One products and a catalog with lots of awesome goodies!  It includes everything: purses, wallets, umbrellas, totes, scarves, shower caddies, etc.  My mom is buying the adorable apron for me since I have recently dubbed myself Susie Homemaker. Part of the sales will be donated to my trip which is really great.  If you don't think Scrapping is your thing, come out anyway for a fun time of fellowship and to browse the products available.  If you won't be in Harrisburg but are still interested in buying a Thirty-One product to help me fundraise, click here and you will be able to see the full catalog!  Feel free to email me with questions, concerns, or to order Thirty-One products or donate to the trip at mbngholson@gmail.com 

SCRAP FOR A CAUSE 

When:    Saturday June 25, 10 am - 5 pm (Come & Go)

Location:    Bankston Fork Baptist Church, Old Rt. 13 

Cost:   $12 to Scrap All Day!  

If you don't want to scrap and are just coming for the fellowship or to shop the Thirty-One products, there is no entry fee.  Concessions will be available!

**A raffle will be held for a basket of scrapbooking supplies as well**

On a side note, my language skills are.... improving. 

I can now say the following in Kinyarwandan: I am hungry; How much does this cost?; I am full; That service is too expensive; That thing is too expensive; I am thirsty;  Are you hungry?; I am looking for.... ; The food is good; Have you eaten?; How are you?

Do you see the trend?  Everything I know how to say revolves around food or shopping.  Welcome to my life....

I am currently in the process of learning how to say the following: I work for.... ; How is your family?; Excuse me; Have a good day; Food; Water; Do you have children; Sorry (sympathy); Repeat; I don't understand; I speak a little Kinyarwandan; Now; Hello; What's up?; I'm fine; Please; Thank you; Goodbye; Yes; No; What is your name?; My name is Mary Brittany; Good; Nice to meet you; You're Welcome.

Good news is that it is coming along.  Whether or not anyone will be able to understand me is something I am trying to not think about.  Seriously though, I think about some of my friends at my University who are foreign and examine their accents. Everyone has heard that beautiful accent that makes you want to pack your bags and travel to that specific country just to listen to that amazing sound every single day.... and then there are the other ones.  The ones who sound as if they are choking out every word and you feel like you are listening to a dying cat speak its last words.... I feel as if people in Rwanda will equate my accent with the latter.  How depressing.

   

I just received great news!

Brittany,

Congratulations!  You have been awarded $535.00 from The Nancy Siteman Fellows Fund to help cover expenses associated with your summer internship with Global Youth Connect. 

 

How Exciting!!  Below I have copied a little information about the Fund and what it supplies money for.  It is supplied by Nancy Siteman specifically for Shear Fellows (Like ME!) to help aid in costs associated with public service.  Since people who are trying to help the public through service or better the world are so often overlooked (both in pay, opportunities, etc.) it's so wonderful that this fund has been established! 

Helping others is one of the few things that truly CAN make a difference in our world and this is frequently forgotten.  After years of college and those expenses, who in their right mind would like to take a job, internship, fellowship, etc. for....virtually no money.  Money is not what controls happiness, but struggling to pay back school loans and buying a house and marriage, kids, life in general.... it starts to add up.  It is easy to see why these public service appointments that many people dreamed of having while in college (so they could save the world) are so often overlooked for higher-paying positions that may or may not have the same type of impact that those dreamy-eyed college students had once admired and strive for.   

Nancy Siteman Fellows' Fund

The Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life is pleased to again offer graduates of the 21st Century Leadership Academy an opportunity to apply for funding from the Nancy Siteman Fellows’ Fund, made possible by a generous gift from Nancy Siteman.

The purpose of the Fund is to provide a limited source of funding for Shear Fellows wishing to pursue public interest activities that may otherwise be prohibitive because of cost.

Now while reading this you probably saw the name "Sue Shear" and "21st Century Leadership Academy" etc. and are wondering what in the world those things are?!  Well let me just tell you that the Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life hosts the 21 Century Leadership Academy each year and it is by far one of the most amazing experiences that a young, motivated woman can have.  It is specifically for young college women in Missouri.  Each Missouri college sends a few women for this week-long Leadership Academy and each woman at the Academy represents every academic major, personality, political opinion, level of political efficacy, race, religion.... all levels of diversity. 

Throughout the week, Shear Fellows learn and practice leadership skills, discuss important public policy issues, connect with women leaders from the public and private sectors and explore the meaning and practice of leadership in a diverse society.

The Leadership Academy curriculum includes interactive panel discussions, small group exercises, skill-building workshops, and opportunities to network with women leaders who are shaping public policy as elected officials, government leaders and policy advocates. These women role models make policy “real” and donate their time to give participants a glimpse of what it means to be a woman in public life. They also help participants develop leadership skills that will increase their effectiveness as policy makers.  One of the many highlights during the week is a day-trip to Jefferson City where participants will participate in a mock legislative session at the State Capitol, and have lunch with women leaders in state government and the judiciary at the Governor's Mansion.

I have never felt so privileged to be part of something so amazing!  Just to prove how important this Academy is and the power of networking.... One lovely lady that I met while at Sue Shear was Amy Williams.  Ms. Williams is the epitome of a dedicated and driven individual that wholeheartedly believes in making the world a better place.  After the Academy, she traveled to Rwanda with Global Youth Connect.  She is the one who truly encouraged me to get involved with this great NGO!  And without the Academy I would have never had the confidence to apply for something so.... scary.  This group of women who have put together the Academy are absolutely amazing and have worked so incredibly hard to help women achieve their full potential.

DID YOU KNOW....Women are a majority of the population but they make up less than 25 percent of the Missouri Legislature and are minority participants at all levels of public policy leadership. The Sue Shear Institute for Women in Public Life exists to make government accessible to all Missouri citizens by encouraging women's full participation in the policy process.  The Academy is the first step in helping to shape Missouri's future leaders.... The class of 2010 was truly a group of movers and shakers and true INTERNATIONAL TRAVELERS!

I know that I would never have transformed into the woman I am today without the amazing week and without all of the wonderful ladies that I was able to meet throughout it.  I am so very proud to say that I am a 2010 Shear Fellow!